New Year New Theme

For many the new year means new resolutions and a fresh start. For me, it is a time to refocus. Years back I resolved not to set any more resolutions. They never worked and in the end I would just beat myself up. What’s the point in that?! After a couple years of no goals and feeling lost, I decided to pick what I call a theme for the year. Apparently I was hip before my time! Over the last couple years it has become popular to pick “One Little Word” instead of setting massive goals (patting myself on the back). ¬†Because life changes so much, I like to set my SMART goals for much smaller increments of time (read 1-2, maybe 3 months). Choosing a theme to focus on has really helped me improve my life in little ways that make big impact when I look back over the year. There are no hard and fast dates or tangible measurements. Last year my main focus was school and survival. I was working really hard to get into either the local community college’s nursing program but hoping to have enough in scholarship to attend George Fox (I had no doubt I would be accepted). All that I had to do for these, I couldn’t mentally focus on anything else. Though everything was swiftly moving forward at Fox and I recieved an invitation to nursing school at Chemeketa, my confidence waivered. Ever since starting all my prereqs I felt God telling me where I would end up at the end was completely different than the goals I spouted to people. I knew I was exactly where I was supposed to be, but not sure where that would put me. I plugged away until my world was shattered by a denial letter for a huge scholarship I was sure I had. I knew I wouldn’t have enough for Fox so I gave up that dream and didn’t sign up for classes. I wrestled with God the whole summer. How could I just walk away from this hard work? I knew I had until the beginning of September to decide because that’s when I had to start nursing school orientation. One Little Word 2015 - CreateFinally, one day, the clouds parted and the angels sung. I felt a peace in my heart and a prodding by the Spirit. I decided to stop pursing school and venture into making my passion my business. That’s a whole other post of whining about market saturation and my own feeling of inadequecy. So, long story short, I have ventured into entrepreneurship, and decided to at least finish my A.A (only 2 classes short). I got my letter a couple days ago that I offically have a degree! Kevin says I should tell people I have a science degree because of how many science classes I took. ¬† That leads to this year. My theme is CREATE. Over the last almost 12 years I have gone from babies in diapers straight into school with no breaks. This year is my time to breath, and really enjoy life. I think God is going to be teaching me lessons on just being to mellow out this type A person even more. There is no rush, no finish line I have to cross. At first when I was telling Kevin this he became worried. He thought I was just going to stop being responsible and have my own fun. I assured him the dishes will still be clean and the kids transported to all their activities. I am just going to get back in touch the creative part of me that was so busy doing, I didn’t have time. I am going to slow down and not freak out when my to do list isn’t finished.

Raising my cup of coffee to a new theme with adventures, and finally a college degree!

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